Attitude

11:20, Sunny

Something must be wrong,
yet,
it seem true to myself...

I am changing, to somewhat worst,
Ever since my colleague left the company,
I become more and more... Lost,
perhaps it's the best word.

I might just become worthless?
These is what I do, and how I act 　↓

1st, not paying much concern on the projects in hand (currently, having 8),

2nd, having hard time picking up customer calls, sometime just ignore the calls,

3rd, some of the days, not wearing the company jacket,

4th, feel ignorance answering/reporting to superior,

5th, taking leave as own wish... just like today.

There perhaps more of these misbehaviour,
but I can't recall.

Knowing these is serious behaviour problem,
as a worker, as an employee, and loose of responsibilities.

But, I can't hold the bad feeling of getting inside the office,
day after day, thing seem sometime better, but also much worst in most time.

The reason of it?
Payroll?
Need a hand?
Job recognition?
Seek of new skills?
Disappointment for the boss not keeping his promise?

I believe all above is true,
and certainly I can't tell other that I am an engineer, not a bit.
At least, an engineer shouldn't have these attitude...

of All lost... yet, there is a job interview waiting for me,
with the losing faith, could I meet the dream job with the right attitude?

Sound moody, but guess I'll find a way out, with your helps?

深夜

土曜日、深夜

もう直ぐ４時ですが、
あまり寝たくない。

ちょっと眠いだけど、
また目が覚めてる。

せっかくの金曜の晩、
せっかくの週末、
何もしなくでも、
早く寝ない。

僕にとって、寝る時間長かったら、
時間を無駄にする気がする。

だから、今、このブログを書いてる。
読んでるあなたも、僕と同じか。

何もしないけど、
頭の中に彼女のこと、ずっと回ってる。
ただ、それだけはっきり言える。

Lines

21:47, clear night

Today, let's us talk, bout line and life.
Have you ever know the basic of engineering drawing?
Don't know? Nevermind, it's simple...
Just like this!

2 lines not crossing, each walk it's own way,

2 people live with their own life.

2 lines crossing but not touching, it's imaginary lines.
2 people met but just brief talking.


2 lines crossing and touching.
2 people getting know each other, but still bright with own life.


2 lines united, become one line.
2 people is sharing their life.

In this world, they are countless of lines
intersecting one and another,
some, we just say "hi",
some, we just say "good morning",
some, we just talk,
but some, we share, like you and me.
It's good to have you.

The end.

Colleague

00:22, raining mist

Today... no...
it's yesterday, my colleague worked for his last day.
Before I left the office,
"See ya", that's the only word from me.

I do not have much common with him,
and quite obvious that we are different type of people.
But, working in this company,
where we are of the same level,
we can share jokes and laughs.

The only thing keep us in contact, is the phone number.
Knowing he has a facebook acc.,
but I didn't add him.
I am very much, dislike every job related thing/people
to get involve in my personal life.
The reason behind this, is perhap I don't like my job...
Hmm, that shd be true.

Anyhow, wishing him a better future,
also wishing myself the same.
After his left, it's bout time for me to prepare my letter as well.
I do not see the vision, mission of this company,
and certainly no promise to all those who is fighting hard,
It's time...