Attitude

11:20, Sunny

Something must be wrong,
yet,
it seem true to myself...

I am changing, to somewhat worst,
Ever since my colleague left the company,
I become more and more... Lost,
perhaps it's the best word.

I might just become worthless?
These is what I do, and how I act 　↓

1st, not paying much concern on the projects in hand (currently, having 8),

2nd, having hard time picking up customer calls, sometime just ignore the calls,

3rd, some of the days, not wearing the company jacket,

4th, feel ignorance answering/reporting to superior,

5th, taking leave as own wish... just like today.

There perhaps more of these misbehaviour,
but I can't recall.

Knowing these is serious behaviour problem,
as a worker, as an employee, and loose of responsibilities.

But, I can't hold the bad feeling of getting inside the office,
day after day, thing seem sometime better, but also much worst in most time.

The reason of it?
Payroll?
Need a hand?
Job recognition?
Seek of new skills?
Disappointment for the boss not keeping his promise?

I believe all above is true,
and certainly I can't tell other that I am an engineer, not a bit.
At least, an engineer shouldn't have these attitude...

of All lost... yet, there is a job interview waiting for me,
with the losing faith, could I meet the dream job with the right attitude?

Sound moody, but guess I'll find a way out, with your helps?